Much Love To All. Remember … there is always HOPE
March 11, 2009
Yesterday I picked up Older Son from the hospital. The sun was shining and you could see some “snow melt”. We drove along the St. John River and listened to rich melodies that I had picked up in the Emerald Isle. We spotted a wind surfer - it was magical to watch him so high in the sky. We followed him until we reached the Mactaquac Dam. He began his descent for landing and Older Son and I headed to the hotel restaurant. We had a lovely dinner (pesto scallops) toasting to our good health with clean water while overlooking the river.
We returned along the beloved St. John River once again … and Older Son gave me a hug before returning to his unit. Oh what a WONDERFUL three hours we had. I will remember it the remainder of my life. I told Older Son I would get him a copy of the music so he could always remember our time together by simply listening to the tunes. Now this is only a week from the darkest of days as I was so concerned for Older Son. I had to let go and hand it over to God. And look what happened!
Then later in the evening I had the film-makers in for a visit. (They landed from New York City and are working on the Agent Orange film.) Pamela also dropped over as she will be doing stills photography for them. I am having a little reception for about twenty-five people tomorrow. I have sprinkled orange mum’s throughout the house. I will be interviewed and filmed for the project … talking about “orange” as I experienced it during my first cancer experience. I will also read from my childhood diaries.
Next week I will probably be headed to Stanley to talk with my employer. The week after - I hope to start a gradual return to work.
So today I end my blog. The snow has returned. But it is a wet snow (it will dissapate) and spring is not far behind it. I hope you will continue to enjoy my main website. Bookmark it! I have enjoyed my time - sharing with you. It’s time to move into service in other ways and begin a new chapter. I wonder what is in that chapter?
Remember — whenever the day or moment seems darkest there is hope. You can always contact me through my website here. Shandarrah’s Place.
Barbara aka Shandarrah (with a loving wink)
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Update: June 15/09 I have applied for Canada Pension Disability and have asked to be reinstated for Disability with Blue Cross. Dealing with insurance companies can be stressful but I have made up my mind I will enjoy the “now”. My attempt at back to work left me barely able to stand. All the dizziness symptoms returned so I am going slowly - learning to walk life at a different pace. It’s a new experience and I am living off savings at the moment. Yikes. I am thankful to have some savings and have been pondering the plight of those who don’t. Barbara

